HOW SHE GOT HER GROOVE BACK AFTER MONTHS IN LOCKDOWN
Just yesterday, I took a selfie; I looked at my six selfies and thought to myself, “Wow, I forgot how beautiful I looked,” and then I glanced at one selfie where I tried to showcase all my 32 teeth and said to myself, “damn, I do have a beautiful smile.”
I then realised how long ago I ever took a selfie, nearly two years (wow). Yes, the pandemic has played a significant role in that; I have not been out anywhere that would make me get dressed up with makeup, let alone think of taking a selfie. It’s almost a second nature for many of us; when we look good and go out somewhere to take a selfie, but for nearly two years, that has not been the case for me, and as a result, I have let myself go.
I have generally stopped wearing makeup to anywhere but church or special events for the past four years. When I have gone out in the past two years, I have honestly paid little to no attention to my appearance. I didn’t see the point.
As much as I love my selfies, I could still notice a flaw, and It was my cheeks in full glory (lol). I felt a little bit of insecurity coming through, but I tried to stop it in its track by saying to myself, “I am working out, and it will all soon disappear.” The question is, how much of it do I want to disappear.
It has just been a month that I started going to the gym, and although I may not have seen any change physically, my mental health has drastically improved. I have gained new confidence, and I am starting to pay more attention to self-care or self-love. It’s like I have found myself again. I have been putting off many things because I felt “rubbish about myself,” I have now taken the bold step to start doing them. I took those selfies while I was getting ready to film a youtube video that I also haven’t done in over a year.
The last thought that came to me was,” how come no one told me?”, but on second thought, I realised I am blessed to be surrounded by people who love me when I didn’t love myself, people who love me when I looked “ratchet” (with lack of a better word ). That’s love right there. I suppose we were all going through it too (lol).
I guess what I am trying to say is that it is okay not to be okay, but that is only for a short time. Similarly, it is okay not to wear makeup or dress up if you don’t want to. Do you boo! But also check up on yourself now and then; seek help if you need to, do whatever you need to do to get back up. Do it for yourself, do it for your mental health and love yourself; you deserve it.
