THE BROKEN WIFE

He walked into my life.

And soon after, I started doing things I didn’t know I could do.

Then I realiSed I was in love

“He broke me.”

He broke every wall I tried to build

Soon I became his wife

I got scared

I thought I was going to lose me

I was going to lose my identity

I thought I’d bury that girl I once knew

But to my surprise

I became stronger than ever before

I became a new girl

I didn’t lose myself; I found me

I have a new identity quite alright

But it’s a better one

One I am proud of

I am still me, broken and stronger

I probably sound like an old record now when I say I was never optimistic about the idea of marriage, perhaps because I did not have a good model growing up. So when God revealed my husband to me, I fought it for a while but after much heartache and feeling miserable, I decided to follow God’s choice. On the day that finally sank in, my first words were, “This is it” (my heart sank)

I was scared and skeptical, and this was for only one reason, I was afraid I was going to lose myself. I will no longer be that strong girl who knows what she wants and goes for what she wants; I was scared I would lose my identity and probably won’t be able to pursue my dreams.

In hindsight, how very wrong was I? I look back now and think to myself,” I didn’t lose myself; I found myself”; I have achieved things I didn’t know I was capable of, and I have not even started yet. I have discovered a new me in ways I could not have imagined; I have found strength in places I thought were impossible. Why was I worried in the first place? God knew what He was doing. He always does. (To be continued)